Since my last blog post I’ve had three doctor appointments and one canceled appointment (not by my choice). If you remember my post “The Remote“, I have been having more symptoms lately and have not been feeling so well. I have been really struggling trying to go to school and do my work in lab while feeling so weak and sick.
My first appointment was with an electrophysiologist, a cardiologist who looks at the heart’s electrical rhythm. My heart has been slowly developing more and more PACs which are turning into runs of SVTs. They feel absolutely horrible. As if my heart is trying to flip-flop out of my chest and I would really like for it to stop. I am trying to be proactive and get treatment started NOW, before it gets worse. Plus, I really wanted to stop taking beta-blockers and lessen the amount of medications I take.
This appointment pretty much killed my hopes though. The doctor said, for right now, that there wasn’t anything that could be done for the runs of SVT. He offered a new anti-arrhythmic medication, but that seemed counter-intuitive to my desire of getting OFF of the medications. Plus I’m really afraid to add more and what the long-term consequences would be. When I told him I wanted to get off the meds, his response was: “There is 0% chance that you will be able to get off your heart medication.” Oh joy. Happiness. I think, the most frustrating aspect of this appointment, however, was that he didn’t seem to realize that I wasn’t seeing him for my dyasautonomia. Electrophysiologists don’t treat dysautonomias, which I knew, but I doubt that he believed I knew that. He spent very little time addressing my runs of SVT which was why I made the appointment in the first place. But at any rate, I am now on a “watch and wait” path. Basically, I am just waiting for the SVT runs to get worse or to progress to a different arrhythmia before we treat them. But it really really sucks dealing with unpleasant symptoms and not being able to do anything about it.
My second appointment was with my urologist. I was planning on canceling this appointment. I had made a compromise to myself that if I went to the electrophysiology appointment, I would cancel the urology one (I really really am not good about being a patient. I tend to ignore my health for as long as I can get away with it). But then I couldn’t rationalize canceling an appointment that dealt with something I really have been having trouble with. My urine has been very dark lately (I’m not dehydrated!). It’s been much more frequent and persistent than normal and that usually means blood.
So I went to the appointment and had the urine test and it showed… Blood.
Shocked? I wasn’t. This is the 3rd time that I have been to this doctor’s office but the first time that they saw the hematuria for themselves. Finally they didn’t have to take my word for it anymore (doctors hate having to take a patient’s word for anything). Unfortunately, I was labeled “our mystery patient”. They don’t know where the blood comes from and why it’s happening. Right now we’re doing a “watch and wait” thing (starting to see a trend?). If my urine gets darker then we will repeat the CT scan and cystoscopy. I’m really really hoping it doesn’t get darker (I totally ignored the one time it did. It was only once though!!).
Finally, my third appointment was with Neurology. Everything has been fairly stable on that front and this appointment was just a check-up one. I did get a referral to an ophthalmologist though because my eyes have been getting more and more blurry.
The appointment that was canceled was suppose to be with my geneticist. I need to get my MRA scans scheduled, but due to the genetics office moving, my appointment was canceled. I am getting referred to a Marfan’s (another vascular CTD) clinic doctor instead. Loeys-Dietz patients need these scans every year or two to make sure that there are no new aneurysms and no growth in current aneurysms. That’s the key to treating Loeys-Dietz: catching and treating the aneurysms before they kill me. In other words… Watch and wait.
So that’s my life for you: “Watch and wait”. While trying to juggle the appointments I do have, my symptoms as they worsen, and trying to be a full-time PhD student. It’s no wonder I’m so exhausted.